Tuesday July 26, 2005

What is blogging for, exactly?

It's been a while since I've used this blog for its intended purpose: talking about my thoughts, opinions, and noteworthy experiences. Lately I've complained about spam, displayed some pictures of my niece, complained some more about spam, and promised to finish writing things that I had no intention to finish in the near future.

Sometimes I sit here, with an open Create New Entry window wondering what I should write about. And then the debate starts.

Should I write about seeing the Warped Tour last week? Warped Tour Redux sounds like a really cool title. And I have a lot to say about the MXPX set. Yeah, okay... here I go.

Wait, no. What if my prospective employer sees this? I don't want them to think I'm an irresponsible crackhead or anything... Of course, I should be hired for my ambition and experience, not my taste in music. But what if?

Okay, so how about posting some more of my thoughts about the war in Iraq? I could write volumes about it, and I usually get good discussions brewing in the comments section. Sounds good.

...except then I'll attract the Republican Jesus crowd that posts nasty comments about me hating God and hating the troops and hating freedom and hating America and hating all that is good and holy. And honestly, I'm a little too tired to deal with that right now.

Plus it'll make Stephanie roll her eyes again.

I've always got more cute pictures of my rats, but what if everyone has goten bored with them? I already dedicated half this blog to Fat Bastard!

Should I do more blogging about being stressed?

About how I spend money at Target to cope with being stressed?

Or about feeling isolated now that all I do is work?

About how I have a crush on Gerard Way?

About wanting to move to Atlanta?

About not wanting to move to Atlanta?

About how 1307 comments spams have been spaminated from my blog in the last 3 days?

About how I'm doing on my diet?

About how I still have "little fat girl in the back of the class" syndrome?

About finding an old $20 bill in my pocket yesterday?

About how my rats are cute when they sleep?

About how I get angry when other Christians act like jerks?

About how I sometimes act like a jerk?

About how this post from LAmom is hella funny?

About how I'm surfing the Target.com website while simultaneously writing this post?

About how I sometimes wish I kept my blog anonymous?

About how I wish I won the lottery?

About how I'm glad that I haven't?

About the latest Psychology article I've read?

About how bummed I am that the guy I like doesn't give me the time of day?

About how the religious war on science irritates me?

About how I angry I am that I panic whenever I have to speak in front of a group of people, yet my brother and sister don't have that problem?

About how my car is a piece of shit?

About how I should be grateful that I have a car?

What?

What should I write about? Can I say anything without wondering how those reading it will perceive me? Isn't this the reason I started a blog... so that I can post about my life without worrying what other people will think?

And does anyone really want to see another picture of my rats?