Wednesday March 27, 2002

How I labor

My eyes are losing focus, my hand is cramped, and I have graphite and charcoal all over myself. This is what it means to be an artist (wannabe). I'm still working on that picture I'm hoping to enter into the student show (which is due next week). I'm finding now that I kind of suck. Actually, I've known that for quite some time. But I've been sitting here trying desperately to make this work, but I keep erasing, re-drawing, and erasing again. I wish I had the skills to just be able to lay it down, and keep it that way. Right now, I don't think I'm getting it right at all.

I know that I have so far to go yet in my pursuit of learning to draw. But it's frustrating that I can't do what I want to do. I see it, but it's hard to draw everything proportionally, correctly. I don't want my drawings to kinda look right. Dammit I want it to be right. And I can't.