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Sunday May 04, 2003

Worldly worries and their antidote.

Last night I went to see my school's production of Equus. Provocative... that's the only word I could use to describe it. Sarah and I caught the midnight show, so I got back to my room well after 2 am.

I had planned on hitting the sack right after coming home from the play, but at 3 am I still just wasn't tired. I listened to music, surfed the web (like I don't do that enough) and waited for my roomie (who worked on wardrobe for the play) to roll in. She got back in at 3:30, or something like that.

With only finals week left in our college careers, we've both been kinda anxious... Okay, more than kinda. I know I was freaking out quite a bit, especially before I landed my new job. Will I find a place to work? Will I have money? Stay in touch with friends? Feel disconected? Wish I hadn't graduated?

Will I be totally unsuccessful as an independent adult?

We talked about this for a good hour and a half, only not focusing on my worries, but on hers. A lot of seniors are totally scared, and it's turning us into these anxious, emotional, neurotic freaks. I hate this feeling. My roomie hates this feeling. Everyone hates this feeling.

At about 5 am we decided to call it a night. I was sitting in bed for a half hour afterward pondering the future. And I came to the conclusin that although our hearts may be beating a mile a minute, there's a anti-worry drug available for anyone who wants it:

I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13


it gets worse? uh oh. I'm only finishing my second year...

I swore and cried so much this exam season. It was nuts.

Shannon on May 4, 2003 11:23 PM

Don't worry... I felt exactly like you do now when I graduated from college. It's not as bad as it seems now. You'll just find a job and probably meet less people than you do now : ) I would say that's the main difference: a reduction of your social life.

Coqui on May 5, 2003 06:25 PM

that's a verse i have to constantly tell myself when things get so overwhelming.

you're going to do wonderfully with yer life as an independent adult. congratulations in coming this far and already! you've done a fab job. :]

sar on May 5, 2003 07:57 PM

My favourite verse. :) Good luck with it all, Drina. I know it will all turn out, I just hope you don't stress out too much about it. :)

Courtney on May 6, 2003 10:09 AM