Tuesday April 16, 2002

Feeling high no more

This high I was on yesterday has faded, to the point that I'm now in lower spirits than I was before... I'm on a major downswing. The picture I worked on for the art show cost me time, which was supposed to have been spent on school work. I'm tired, I've gotten no sleep, I have loads of work to do, and today I got a 48/100 on my imaging project. The assignment was to make two postcards of Cleveland, and I only had one. I didn't have time to do anymore, and I feel like shit.

This is the only one I got done. I spent so much time on it (not that you can tell, but I'm a perfectionist, and I played around with so many things that I never used for the final product). I just want to quit school. I'm so stressed, I have so much work to do... I don't know what to do. I met with my advisor to confirm my classes for next semester, and I realized then just how much I hate doing this. I hate it.

I don't want to sit in class doing experiments on rats and learning research methods with the most evil professor I've ever met. He has a doctorate, and dammit you better recognize... I hate it. Dammit.